Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Why Christianity Can Kinda Suck

Before you start freaking out, just listen to what I have to say.

Christianity kinda sucks, and here's why:

None of it is the same. No one person views Christianity the same. What do I mean by that? I mean, that so many people believe in so many different versions of Christianity, that we don't really have a set standard of what's right, and what's wrong. Now obviously there's the 10 Commandments, which are the basic guidelines of right vs. wrong (or what most people would argue). But what about the small things? What about things like swearing, or smoking, or drinking, or not attending church every Sunday, or drinking, or listening to "unholy" music, etc? The list goes on, and every single person seems to have their own opinion about it.

Here's my dilemma: What is right or okay? What is wrong?
We've all read the Bible, or looked up a verse or two during an Internet argument, to each is their own. So why do we see people who claim to be Christian, also partake in things that could be considered wrong in Bible standards? Why do younger generations so openly curse, drink, and smoke, then attend church on Sunday and partake in praise in worship like nothing happened? Why do older generations look on younger generations with nothing but judge mental eyes? We've all been there, in both situations, so why aren't Christians treating all sin as equal? Why are we picking and choosing? Why aren't we lifting each other up, instead of judging each individual for all possible wrong they've done? Older generations claim to be so understanding of people, because "we've all sinned", right? Yet they get into their little groups and immediately start bad mouthing that person because the sin they just committed that managed to make it into the public, is so unforgivable and so unholy and WHAT on Earth would Jesus do? But that's just the thing. Jesus may not have given in to any temptations, but I'm sure nobody judging another person's sin has, either. Jesus is literally the only perfect person to ever walk the earth, yet every single day we come across people who seem to be "holier than thou". That just because they haven't given in to the specific temptation that you have given in to, they are somehow better.

So how do I, as part of the younger generation, know right from wrong? How am I expected to be perfect, when a preacher can stand behind a pull-pit and preach about being a good Christian, yet stand there and in the same message mention sex multiple times, and state he is okay with drinking? How can I watch "spiritual leaders" tell me I'm sinning, yet not even register the fact that their current addiction is a sin as well? How can I teach myself right from wrong, when the people who are teaching me aren't exactly perfect either? It just amazes me that people can be SO quick to judge, but SO slow to understanding. It is so hard for me to claim to be a Christian, when there are so many people who also claim to be a Christian yet make no movements to better their lives. They're okay with what they do. They're okay with being weekday sinners, and Sunday morning Christians? How do I make it in a world where the vast majority claims to be Christians, yet are so blatantly hypocritical, and also blind to their hypocrisy? Because to me? Christianity is all about bettering yourself, and helping those around you better themselves. Christianity isn't sinning, and never asking for forgiveness yet still hoping to be forgiven. Christianity is making mistakes, asking for forgiveness, and giving your all in an attempt at not making that mistake again. Christianity isn't saying one sin is worse than the other, it's recognizing that all sins are equal in the eyes of Jesus, and that EVERYONE has the opportunity to be forgiven. So while Christianity can most definitely suck, it needs to be about spreading love and understanding above all else.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

To The Best Friend Who Moved On Without Me

We were so close.
But then you moved on without me. You didn't mean to, you really didn't. That's just life. Not everyone stays best friends with their high school friends, but some do. You moved on, you got better friends, and had the time of your life. I know you still care about me, but life is so totally hectic. I get that.

But what I don't get is how you can completely forget who a person is when you don't hang out on a daily basis.
We hung out for the first time in forever, and we didn't even know what to talk about anymore.

They warn you that you lose your friends, but they forget to warn you how it feels to lose your best friends.
They don't tell you that you just stop talking. That you slowly fade from each other's lives. That when you finally decide to meet up, you no longer have anything in common. You get replaced by their new friends. Their new friends are now replaced with your "this made me think of you" little moments.

They never told you that friendship heartbreaks hurt 100x more than relationship heartbreaks. They never told you how crappy life is when you don't have your best friend there to defeat the world with you. They never told you that people just drift apart. Not on purpose, not out of spite. Just because of life's different paths. And that's what's hard. Losing someone to life and watching them live without you, when you promised each other so many times to always be there.